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Yes, a (self) love story.

No doubt, I also have ups and downs in my life. I could say that I'm an overthinking person which sometimes it could turn me sober and confuse, and that confusion was unbearable.

Did I tell you that I actually really really REALLY wanted to get into Universiti Malaya (UM)? That was my only dream since I was in primary school. And I actually got the offer to pursue my foundation in Life Science in UM after SPM (because I want to be a Pharmacist) but I have to let it go, instead, I enrolled into MMU and taking IT courses. It's hard to let go what we have always wanted, I know. 

"Hey, just go with the flow", they said.

I've come a long way from that "advice". I trust myself that I always have a second chance. I asked myself a lot of questions like: What do I really need? How will I get all those things I need? Did I make the correct decision? Should I go or not? and I listened to every single answers carefully and followed where my heart leads me. Not only that, but I also accepted and asked for bits of help from others.

...but you know,

People.

Come.

And.

Go.

, and I understood that I could not stop anyone to leave. 

BUT HONESTLY, THAT WAS THE MOST PAINFUL PART.

Some people I want to keep forever. Somehow, at some level, learning to let them go completely is hard.  However, I have heard that missing people is a part of the healing processes.  I am thankful for all of the people who have came into my life.  

But I really have to say this; Some I miss dearly, some I think about often, some I wish I could just call up like I used to and tell about random things. Talk about all those stupid things like we never get bored. I miss everything about us. (thanks to those who stay)

If you think that life sucks and hurts you so much, it doesn't, but it teaches you. Maybe you didn't get what you always want, but I believe that you got exactly what you will need. 

This is my (self) love story.

To all people and those things happened in my life:

Thank you, next.